Down in the Slumps…. And all the Negative Feelings That Are There

So this past week has just been a bummer. I didn’t workout at all! Not one day did I make it to the gym or attempt a home routine, and I feel so guilty. I was stressed and running around all week. I had a very important interview on Friday which I’m pretty sure I bombed. That in turns has added to me feeling worst about myself. Let’s just say this week was the week all my doubts and negative thoughts decided to come out. Now I know we’re human and entitled to these days here and there, but I’ve literally been feeling like this all week. This weekend was worst since I then had the bad thoughts from my interview added to it. I’m trying to shake it off these negative feelings, but it seems like every time I’m not occupied my mind just goes to, “Yeah Des you really screwed that one up, kiss that job good bye.”

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So how does one shake this feeling? Well for me is to keep occupied and eventually it goes away. I also just redirect my thoughts as soon as the negativity starts to creep in. I pick up a book, turn to my spirituality, or just go over my schedule for the next day in my mind. I know I’ll be better and this week will just be another dot in the past. I just hope I can shake it off sooner rather than later. For now I’ll just continue reading my books, planning my gym routines for this week (I have to make up for last week), and give myself pep talks.

 

How do you deal with the negative committee? Do you have an instant pick me up? Remember you’re never alone, and while sometimes it gets overwhelming it gets better.

 

Desiree

 

 

Motivation… What’s that??

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Motivation, it can be a fickle thing. Sometimes we wake up and are ready to conquer the world. Sometimes we need some fuel to get us going. It may fizzle out halfway through or be enough to push you to the end. Whatever the case may be we’ve all come across at time (or 2, or 50), when we just don’t have it in us. I’ve been feeling like this since Thursday.

Last week was my first week back to work after being off for 4 months on maternity leave. I started the week off with a bang. I was ready to go and had all these plans to work, come home, tend to the kids, and workout everyday. Boy was I wrong. I completely disregarded the fact that while I wasn’t sleeping in and slacking off during my leave, it wasn’t the same as working and doing all my regular tasks. Midway through the week I felt just like Homer, “Can’t someone else do it??” I pushed through and worked out at home, something light but at least it was something. By the time Friday rolled around I was completely drained. I came home and passed out. I woke up hours later upset that the Mr. let me sleep. I felt disappointed in myself for not sticking to my “plan” of being this kick ass beast and demolishing my workouts.

Over the weekend as I was at the gym doing some reps I was looking in the mirror and thought to myself don’t beat yourself up, you tried, you stayed as close to your plan as possible, and hey at least you did something. I was motivated to an extent, but my body just wasn’t. It wasn’t prepare for all the plans I had for it.

Here it is Monday, week two and I’ve revamped the game plan. I’ve set some realistic expectations and am aware of what my body is capable of and the adjustment period it’s going to need. I won’t lie as I sit here typing this I’m tired and ready to call it a night, but I knew if I put off this post I wouldn’t have the same words for it tomorrow. I have a funny feeling I may wake up tomorrow with a little less motivation than I had this morning, but I know I’ll get a second wind and push through.

Here’s to staying motivated and getting through our day/night/workout. It’s not easy to keep going at times, but you’ll feel so much better if you do.

Desiree

 

Be Prepared

No this isn’t a boy scouts post, but I’m going to borrow their motto. One thing I have learned when it comes to losing weight, gaining muscle, or just trying to change your eating habits is that prepping ahead of time makes a huge difference. I don’t know how many times I made up my mind that I would make better food choices only to fail and end up buying something that 1. I didn’t really want to eat, and 2. was junk. Now I am aware that when buying lunch you don’t have to opt for fast food, you can find “healthier” choices but a lot of times those choices are readily available, and eventually you end up spending so much extra money. Time and time again I failed when my lunch break rolled around.

Then one weekend after reading about and seeing posts/videos about food prepping I decided I was going to give it a go. I spent the weekend researching recipes and techniques. I then armed myself with my grocery list and picked up my ingredients. The first time I decided to prep it was a bit overwhelming. I was cooking large portions of foods, and dividing it into plastic containers for the week. Since I was eating about every 3 hours that meant that if I ate breakfast at home I would need another 3-4 meals to bring to work. I say 3-4 depending on how long my work day was. Also for the most part I was preparing my dinner too. Yes I know this sounds like a lot of food to cook and containers to carry but it’s worth it.

The first week I bought my food in I knew this was the way to go. It was convenient and I didn’t give in to buying junk food. Whenever I was hungry I just grabbed one of my containers or prepackaged snacks and chowed down. It was easy sticking to my meal plan when everything was already portioned out and ready to go. And you know what else, since I was staying on track and constantly feeding myself all the good stuff I bought my cravings for sweets and junk food wasn’t as strong. I won’t lie I carved a big ole greasy burger or chocolate here and there but not like I use to.

The other thing about prepping is it gets easier. You get faster at making your go to foods and it becomes like second nature. Now if you go and make the same exact foods week in and week out you will become bored with your food and possible sick of it. The trick is to be able to mix up your menu but still keep it convenient for yourself. But don’t worry about that I’ll be making posts about some of my quick go to foods, new recipes I’m trying, and food prepping in general. So if you have any questions, recipes you wanna share with me or that you would like me to cook send me an email and I’ll be happy to do what I can.

Remember, as cliche as this is going to sound, “When you fail to prepare, you’re preparing to fail.”

XOXO,

Desiree

 

Welcome

Why am I blogging?

Well there are many reasons but the main one is I want to share with you my story and part of my life. So let’s get into the real details of why.

Like many people I have struggled with my weight and self-esteem for years. Growing up I was a very petite (5’1), and barely weighed 110 lbs at the most. After having my first son I gained weight, however I was comfortable with the gain. Over the next few years between 2 more pregnancies, bad reactions to certain medications, and depression I really packed on the pounds. That’s when the cycle began, one I’m sure many of you may be familiar with to a certain extent. I would get motivated and begin dieting, working out, but failing miserably. I would get discouraged when the weight wouldn’t come off fast enough, or I was in a bad mood because I felt hungry from dieting, and I would give up. That then lead to being depressed, And then I would start all over again a few months later. I did this for years, my highest weight reached 190 lbs.

In the summer of 2013 I decided enough was enough. I began to do some research and realizing that I was going about it completely wrong. Instead of “dieting” I needed to change my lifestyle and make it a permanent change. And so I began. However not long after I was pleasantly surprised with the news that I was pregnant with my 4th son. So while I stayed fairly active and continued to stick to a somewhat healthy eating routine, I didn’t workout the way I would’ve liked to. I then ended up having gestational diabetes which made my pregnancy high risk. On March 23 2014¬† I went in to the hospital to be induced, at which point I had several complications, but thankfully I was blessed with a beautiful, healthy baby boy in the end.

Now because of the gestational diabetes, and family history I was told I was at risk to have Type 2 diabetes. I decided then I would really get to work to lose all the extra weight, which on the day of my delivery I weighed 193 lbs. I wish I could say it was smooth sailing from there out. Nope, of course not. A few weeks later I started experiencing horrible chest pains. They would come out of no where, and would make me horribly sick. I would sweat, feel nauseous, and eventually vomit. After a few episodes I ended up in the ER on my birthday, womp womp. I was then told I would need my gallbladder removed. So a month after having my baby on April 25th I had gallbladder surgery. I wish I could say that was the end of my health complications.

When I went in for my follow-up I was told my cholesterol was high, my triglycerides were high, I needed to continuing monitoring my blood sugar randomly because of the risk of diabetes, and I needed to lose weight of course. I remember going home feeling like complete poo. Here I was just turned 33 and failing to pieces. Just when I thought I was in the clear, nope more was going on. I was down and upset for the next few days.

Then after a few days I decided that I wasn’t going to give up. That while I’ve been facing health complication after complication I could still fix it. I was still young and knew I could turn things around. I refused to continue to let it escalate and be put on all types of medications. Enough is enough!! It was then and there when I decided I would work towards becoming the best version of me possible.

So here I am on my journey to becoming a better me. Now don’t get me wrong I’m pretty awesome already, but I want to be able to do and enjoy certain things the way I use to. I want to set goals and achieve them. I want to be able to play with my sons and keep up with them. But above all I just want to be healthy and enjoy life.

This is my journey, I’m sharing it with you in hopes that it may inspire some of you to start your own journeys. Let’s share our ups and downs, inspire each other, and support one and other while we work towards our goals. It’s never too late, and in the end you’ll be happy you started.

 

Let’s conquer these obstacles placed before us and be the fabulous, fit people we can be.

Desiree