Happiness Is…

So after the last post I didn’t want to stay hanging on a bummed out note, which is why I decided to write something more upbeat and happy. Here is a list of what happiness is to me right now.

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Happiness Is……
1. A good book and nice cup of tea.
2. Going into the gym and it’s empty.
3. Vanilla scented candles.
4. The smile on my kids’ face.
5. Having time to play some Call of Duty/Bioshock (yes I’m late to the Bioshock party).
6. New York Comic Con being 28 days away.
7. The start of football season
8. Hitting a PR on the leg press.
9. The perfect red lipstick.
10. Watching Hannibal

What’s making you happy? Share what happiness is to you.

Desiree

Down in the Slumps…. And all the Negative Feelings That Are There

So this past week has just been a bummer. I didn’t workout at all! Not one day did I make it to the gym or attempt a home routine, and I feel so guilty. I was stressed and running around all week. I had a very important interview on Friday which I’m pretty sure I bombed. That in turns has added to me feeling worst about myself. Let’s just say this week was the week all my doubts and negative thoughts decided to come out. Now I know we’re human and entitled to these days here and there, but I’ve literally been feeling like this all week. This weekend was worst since I then had the bad thoughts from my interview added to it. I’m trying to shake it off these negative feelings, but it seems like every time I’m not occupied my mind just goes to, “Yeah Des you really screwed that one up, kiss that job good bye.”

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So how does one shake this feeling? Well for me is to keep occupied and eventually it goes away. I also just redirect my thoughts as soon as the negativity starts to creep in. I pick up a book, turn to my spirituality, or just go over my schedule for the next day in my mind. I know I’ll be better and this week will just be another dot in the past. I just hope I can shake it off sooner rather than later. For now I’ll just continue reading my books, planning my gym routines for this week (I have to make up for last week), and give myself pep talks.

 

How do you deal with the negative committee? Do you have an instant pick me up? Remember you’re never alone, and while sometimes it gets overwhelming it gets better.

 

Desiree

 

 

Currently…. Saturday Edition

Hello. I’ve recently seen on Instagram a few of what I’m calling “currently” posts in which people lists what they’re currently watching, doing, listening to, et cetera. So I’ve decided to incorporate that idea here. Every now and then I’ll make a “currently’ post and list a few of my currents. I think there may be a link up for this also and if so I would love to be get linked up. If you know of it, or are involved with it let a sista know.

 

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Listening to: The thunderstorm outside

Just finished: My health homework

Weather: Disgustingly humid with on and off thunderstorms.

Anticipating: The first day of school. My oldest starts high school, and the middle child begins middle school. I will be a ball of emotions Monday morning.

Entertained by: Baby Squish is trying to crawl. He gets up on his hands and knees and rocks back and forth until he tires himself out. My baby is trying so hard.

Want to cook: I want to try a cauliflower alfredo sauce recipe I came across. I’ll be sure to post it here once I do.

Feeling: Anxious! I had an important meeting yesterday and am dying to receive feedback.

Watching: Hannibal season 1. I am finally getting around to watching this and I’m so excited. Anyone who knows me knows I’m a horror/suspense fan.

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There you have them a few of my currents. I may add a few more categories in future posts.

 

What are you currently doing? Tell me about your current TV shows, things you’re looking forward to, anything you’re currently excited about or looking forward to.

Desiree

Baked Oatmeal

Like many breakfast I the hardest meal for me. It’s not that I don’t like it, I just barely have time to make it before running out the door. When I do have time I can’t figure out what to make, which brings me to today’s recipe: baked oatmeal. I came across this recipe and loved the fact I could make it the night before, and freeze it for later consumption. So I gave it a whirl.

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Ingredients:
2 cups old fashioned oats
1/2 cup packed brown sugar
1/4 cup chopped nuts (walnuts, almonds, pecans) I used walnuts
1/3 cup drive fruit (raisins, cranberries, cherries)
1 1/2 cup 2% milk (I used coconut milk)
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
1 tsp baking powder
2 tbsp melted butter
1 large egg

Preheat oven to 375

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In a bowl mix together oats, brown sugar, nuts, dried fruit, and baking powder.

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In a separate bowl whisk the milk, applesauce, butter and egg.

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Stir into oats mixture until combined.

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Coat an 11×7 baking dish with non stick cooking spray and pour batter into dish. Bake for 20 minutes at 375 degrees.

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After baking allow to cool and cut into single servings. Wrap in plastic wrap and store in the freezer using freezer bag. In the morning remove from wrap and heat in the microwave for about 45 seconds or until gooey and warm. Enjoy!

I’ll admit I like the taste however I may play around with the recipe more. It didn’t come out as firm as I thought it would initially but the next day it was perfect. Overall I will be making again and once I come up with a recipe I’m completely happy with I’ll post again. Feel free to give it a shot and tweak it to your desire.

What’s your go to breakfast meal? Send me your recipes, I would love to try them.

Desiree

No Sugar, No Problem. Maybe…

So about three weeks ago I decided to cut out sugar as much as possible. So no sweets, soda (which I barely drunk to begin with), juice, or other sugary stuff with the exception to use some in my coffee. Now I thought this was going to be easy, and my biggest challenge would probably be chocolate or if I came across some amazing looking cupcake. However that hasn’t been the case. Since I started some days are a breeze. I walk by my beloved Reese’s no problem. Buy some days, wow I really want sweets. The funny thing is it’s not even the normal sweets I crave. I find myself wanting ice cream and whip cream, or soda. However I’m happy to report I have not given in. My will power has overcome and I’ve just said no.

Now I’m not sure exactly how long I’m giving up sugar for. Originally I said about two months or so. I know at the very least I’ll keep it up until October and see then will I continue. If I don’t continue on an all out ban on sugar I may just have a super strict limit.

Have you given up any food? If so why and for how long?

As always sending everyone positive vibes and cheering you on as you go out I to the world and kick butt.

Desiree

Motivation… What’s that??

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Motivation, it can be a fickle thing. Sometimes we wake up and are ready to conquer the world. Sometimes we need some fuel to get us going. It may fizzle out halfway through or be enough to push you to the end. Whatever the case may be we’ve all come across at time (or 2, or 50), when we just don’t have it in us. I’ve been feeling like this since Thursday.

Last week was my first week back to work after being off for 4 months on maternity leave. I started the week off with a bang. I was ready to go and had all these plans to work, come home, tend to the kids, and workout everyday. Boy was I wrong. I completely disregarded the fact that while I wasn’t sleeping in and slacking off during my leave, it wasn’t the same as working and doing all my regular tasks. Midway through the week I felt just like Homer, “Can’t someone else do it??” I pushed through and worked out at home, something light but at least it was something. By the time Friday rolled around I was completely drained. I came home and passed out. I woke up hours later upset that the Mr. let me sleep. I felt disappointed in myself for not sticking to my “plan” of being this kick ass beast and demolishing my workouts.

Over the weekend as I was at the gym doing some reps I was looking in the mirror and thought to myself don’t beat yourself up, you tried, you stayed as close to your plan as possible, and hey at least you did something. I was motivated to an extent, but my body just wasn’t. It wasn’t prepare for all the plans I had for it.

Here it is Monday, week two and I’ve revamped the game plan. I’ve set some realistic expectations and am aware of what my body is capable of and the adjustment period it’s going to need. I won’t lie as I sit here typing this I’m tired and ready to call it a night, but I knew if I put off this post I wouldn’t have the same words for it tomorrow. I have a funny feeling I may wake up tomorrow with a little less motivation than I had this morning, but I know I’ll get a second wind and push through.

Here’s to staying motivated and getting through our day/night/workout. It’s not easy to keep going at times, but you’ll feel so much better if you do.

Desiree

 

Welcome

Why am I blogging?

Well there are many reasons but the main one is I want to share with you my story and part of my life. So let’s get into the real details of why.

Like many people I have struggled with my weight and self-esteem for years. Growing up I was a very petite (5’1), and barely weighed 110 lbs at the most. After having my first son I gained weight, however I was comfortable with the gain. Over the next few years between 2 more pregnancies, bad reactions to certain medications, and depression I really packed on the pounds. That’s when the cycle began, one I’m sure many of you may be familiar with to a certain extent. I would get motivated and begin dieting, working out, but failing miserably. I would get discouraged when the weight wouldn’t come off fast enough, or I was in a bad mood because I felt hungry from dieting, and I would give up. That then lead to being depressed, And then I would start all over again a few months later. I did this for years, my highest weight reached 190 lbs.

In the summer of 2013 I decided enough was enough. I began to do some research and realizing that I was going about it completely wrong. Instead of “dieting” I needed to change my lifestyle and make it a permanent change. And so I began. However not long after I was pleasantly surprised with the news that I was pregnant with my 4th son. So while I stayed fairly active and continued to stick to a somewhat healthy eating routine, I didn’t workout the way I would’ve liked to. I then ended up having gestational diabetes which made my pregnancy high risk. On March 23 2014¬† I went in to the hospital to be induced, at which point I had several complications, but thankfully I was blessed with a beautiful, healthy baby boy in the end.

Now because of the gestational diabetes, and family history I was told I was at risk to have Type 2 diabetes. I decided then I would really get to work to lose all the extra weight, which on the day of my delivery I weighed 193 lbs. I wish I could say it was smooth sailing from there out. Nope, of course not. A few weeks later I started experiencing horrible chest pains. They would come out of no where, and would make me horribly sick. I would sweat, feel nauseous, and eventually vomit. After a few episodes I ended up in the ER on my birthday, womp womp. I was then told I would need my gallbladder removed. So a month after having my baby on April 25th I had gallbladder surgery. I wish I could say that was the end of my health complications.

When I went in for my follow-up I was told my cholesterol was high, my triglycerides were high, I needed to continuing monitoring my blood sugar randomly because of the risk of diabetes, and I needed to lose weight of course. I remember going home feeling like complete poo. Here I was just turned 33 and failing to pieces. Just when I thought I was in the clear, nope more was going on. I was down and upset for the next few days.

Then after a few days I decided that I wasn’t going to give up. That while I’ve been facing health complication after complication I could still fix it. I was still young and knew I could turn things around. I refused to continue to let it escalate and be put on all types of medications. Enough is enough!! It was then and there when I decided I would work towards becoming the best version of me possible.

So here I am on my journey to becoming a better me. Now don’t get me wrong I’m pretty awesome already, but I want to be able to do and enjoy certain things the way I use to. I want to set goals and achieve them. I want to be able to play with my sons and keep up with them. But above all I just want to be healthy and enjoy life.

This is my journey, I’m sharing it with you in hopes that it may inspire some of you to start your own journeys. Let’s share our ups and downs, inspire each other, and support one and other while we work towards our goals. It’s never too late, and in the end you’ll be happy you started.

 

Let’s conquer these obstacles placed before us and be the fabulous, fit people we can be.

Desiree